Occasionally I feel like tofu. I don't mean I feel like eating it, I mean I like it and all, but I'm talking more about the concept of tofu. You've heard someone describe tofu by saying, "Oh it really doesn't taste like anything, it takes on the flavor of the dish." That is exactly what happens to me, I tend to take on the flavor of the dish, so to speak.
I'm a happy-go-lucky person, I truly am. I am gregarious, outgoing, love to laugh and have fun, and I think am pretty much what you see is what you get. I am usually upbeat and positive and see the bright side in most situations. I am a glass-is-half-full kind of gal. That being said, I sometimes get all tofu-y and start to take on the flavor of the dish. Husband not really in a good mood? Boss stressed and agitated? Tofu will take some of that on. Friends feeling down? Family in a funk? Good old tofu will have some of that flavor too. This doesn't always happen, thankfully, but when it does I find it disturbing.
Most of the time I can Keep Calm and Carey On. (wink!)
So what is it? My time of the month? A bout of insecurity? A pity party? Self-centeredness to the extreme? Full moon? Who knows! All I know is that it kills me a little bit each time it happens and I hate it. BUT, I am getting better at recognizing it and ending it before it goes to far. That's progress, baby.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
I've started this blog in my head a million times and the main thing holding me back is lack of a cute name for the whole thing. Pathetic, right? Nope, that's par for this course. I wanted the title to be catchy and cute! When I start something, anything, whatever it is- I want to be good at it right away. No learning curve here, I want to pick up whatever it is and be good! So good in fact, that people will talk about how good I am and what a natural I am and how I should have done this long ago. I have an obvious ego/ pride issue which I'm sure will be discussed at length on many occasions.
Interestingly, over the past few years I have come to realize that learning to do new things is fun! I have a friend that tries to learn something new every year. She never claims to be an expert at any of these things, just learns then for the sake of learning. I have learned to listen to her and have been trying to do the same thing. I let go of that pride and fear and went back to school a few years ago and earned another degree. The following year I began to practice yoga, which has changed my life. Last year I was definitely going to learn how to sew and even got a sewing machine to prove it! But, alas, 'tis still in the box right now. I will learn how to sew, just not quite yet.
Back to the title of this blog. I have these friends, you see, who are creative and funny and smart and beautiful! And when I posed my dilemma they sprung into action and came up with the beginnings of the name. So I think the most important thing I have learned in the past few years which has been a life saver to me is to ask for help when I need it. Not rocket science, but for a girl like me it may have well been.